A Personal Reflection On Surrender
I used to believe surrender was giving up—something passive, weak, reserved for those who’d run out of options. But somewhere between the agony of trying to control everything and the quiet pull of something deeper, I began to realise that while control had become my shield, it was also my prison. So used to being in control of “life” as I knew it, I fought long and hard to stay in control, but exhaustion got the better of me. It was then I realised that surrender is not a retreat, but an invitation.
I didn’t choose surrender. Rather, through unpredictable twists, emotional storms, and moments of quiet fatigue and tears, it chose me. Surrender showed up like a whisper: ‘You don’t have to figure it all out right now. Just be here. Just trust.’And slowly, I did.
What Surrender Feels Like
It isn't always graceful. Sometimes it stings. But beneath that discomfort is liberation. Surrender is made of small, daily choices:
Pausing instead of reacting
Listening without defending
Accepting mystery without demanding certainty
Forgiving someone, not because they asked, but because the burden of not forgiving is too much of a burden to carry
Surrender Doesn’t Erase Free Will
One thing I’ve had to reconcile is that surrender doesn’t mean abandoning choice. It means choosing from a deeper place. A place where fear doesn’t run the show. Where ego doesn’t need to prove itself. It’s still me, making the decisions—but with more grace, more openness, more intuition.
My Quiet Practice
Don’t get me wrong. I’m human, and I still fall into bouts of fear and control. But after years of practice, ie, meditation, mindfulness, and Reiki energy healing, I am better at making peace with the unknown. I sit with discomfort, with questions that have no immediate answers. It’s not easy, but the more I sit and accept 'what is’, the lighter, wiser, and more connected I feel. Surrender taught me that healing begins not with force, but with the flow. That transformation isn’t something we push—it’s something we allow.
How Reiki Supported Me To Surrender
There’s something powerful about lying still, allowing the healing touch—or even the intention of Reiki to guide you inward. In those sessions, I’ve felt layers of tension melt away that my words couldn’t explain. Reiki doesn’t force. It doesn’t fix. It facilitates. It invites surrender through:
Stillness and Presence: The gentle flow of energy encourages awareness without resistance.
Energetic Release: It helps clear stagnation—old emotions, limiting beliefs—that we may be gripping without realizing.
Intuitive Connection: Reiki opens channels to inner wisdom, reminding us that we’re more than our thoughts.
For me, energy healing became a doorway—not just to relaxation, but to remembering. Remembering that I could trust life. Trust myself and the deeper rhythm beneath the noise. Through personal experience, I know that one of the benefits of Reiki is to entrain one to surrender.
If You’re Reading This
Maybe you’re in that space where things don’t make sense. Maybe control isn’t working the way it used to. If so, I invite you to gently lean into the wisdom of letting go. Not because you’re giving up, but because you're waking up. Make the decision to engage in practices such as meditation, Reiki or frequency and sound healing to support you in letting go, to be in active partnership with your intuition, and to release the grip and allow grace to enter.